A good xmas day. Went ktv with YR yeah.... sing for 4 hrs. shiok man.... its so much fun to go with YR.. the songs were like making me so numb... bcos no matter how many sad songs i sing, its still making me sad... and can't change anything. so i anyhow choose songs to sing. Then, went to play arcade. woohoo... miss my DDR!!!! Finally get to play today... it was such a long time since i stepped on the stage liao.. stepped until legs want to break liao.. YR also... but the feeling was damn satisfying. Evening time meet my mum and brother for dinner. Then i bought a new phone!! hahaha.... think for so long then decided to buy the sony ericsson k500i. Wanted to buy T630 at first, there's no stock at northpt, but there is in BP plaza, played ard with it find it not very user-friendly.... so bought this instead... Hehe...today is a very happy day for me =D


fallen blogged on 12/26/2004 01:05:00 AM

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merry xmas~~~yeah.. half day work for me today... then aft work went to meet carol and her friends.. hahaha.... always win her during the pool game, hey, the last game i let u win one ok... ooppss... sorry not supposed to be arrogant here... hehe... not happy right.. feel free to challenge me again!! LOL... then eat sushi and rotted at mac... anyway thanx carol for your present =) it smells nice...

Suddenly realised the importance of having friends. ... and also realised tat my friends ard me treated me very nice... i felt so blessed..... chongqing is right, love is not everything.. i still got my friends and family and work and study.... haizz.... but cannot blame me also mah... I am already 23 leh.... never get into a date before.. any ordinary person will definitely hope to have someone to love and be loved right. ya lo.... i try to be happier lo....juz hope tat dreams will come true one day for me. If not.... then like tat lo.........


fallen blogged on 12/24/2004 10:49:00 PM

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Feeling stuck up at work.... haiz.... being sandwiched between two women.... woman A complaining abt woman B to me, woman B complaining abt woman A to me... arrgghhh..... my head gonna explode liao... i dun wan to bother abt their business leh.. woman A is damn talkative... every little thing she also can complain... wah liaw.... then woman B is damn kapo and very blunt in her words, always hurt ppl unintentionally...but woman A is very petty one.. she will rem watever woman B says even thot woman B didn't do it on purpose....and woman B every little thing she also must know... -.-"" =vomit blood= Althot I am unhappy with woman B, bcos she sometimes say some rude words unintentionally to me, but ok la.... I treat her as colleague, I try not to take it to heart. But she dun know her own problem, yest. woman A say something rude unintentionally too to woman B , woman B was pissed off... I mean she always say bad abt ppl she herself dun know.. then ppl say her once only, she make a big damn fussed over it.. i mean woman A has been tolerating all her nonsense too, but woman B dun know. And she thinks that she is right, ok shld say, both parties think that they are in the right, so they are having cold war now... omg.... then... i .... being the most innocent cute naive one.... (hey u! dun puke =P) got to be the medium between them... sheesh..... woman A ask me to eat lunch with woman B, then woman B ask me to eat lunch with woman A... wat the.......... =[ arrgghhh... dun wanna care abt them la... I shall juz keep quiet.. let them fight among themselves... =X But of cos, everyone got their own weaknesses, woman B is not so bad, she got her good points also la.. she is more attentive towards other ppl's speech.. while woman A juz likes to talk abt her own stuffs never give us a chance to talk ..... then for me, ok. the innocent cute naive one... will act innocent cute naive most of the time and blur! LOL. -_-"

Then, my supervisor juz spent one day doing the research and he found the exact solution!!! OMG. feeling so lousy + discouraged + low morale + sux . I mean I spent 1 month + trying to solve the problem, and then just he juz spent one day he did it already... all my efforts wasted and not of use.... =..( haizzz...... looks like i gonna be out of job soon man... lol.... i can imagine him coming to me and say" ok, i think u may leave now, u r not of use anymore" =@ oohhh nooooo....... shit....... bad bad bad...... its a bad beginning for me....


fallen blogged on 12/23/2004 10:23:00 AM

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I fell in love with the wrong person again. How many wrong persons must I met before I can get to find the right one? Only He knows the answer. Everything is back to square one. I am stoned again.

Happens to hear 933 now, DJ chongqing was saying that love is not everything, dun feel lonely even if u dun have that special someone by your side right now, there's many other things for us to rely on. If u can't find tat someone, dun feel too upset abt it. If u found tat someone, treat it as a bonus gift. But I guess I can never get that bonus gift. =

fallen blogged on 12/22/2004 11:44:00 AM

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Spent my day with jess, went to watch movie and walk walk and then had dinner.. thanx alot jess, for acc me today, and treating me to movie and dinner. Really happy =) Sorry if I bored u or didn't talk much, as this is our first date, I was shy and nervous =^__^= pls forgive me..
Rem I told u that I will get shy in front of pretty gers? LOL.... anyway thanx once again, hope to meet up with u again soon ;)


fallen blogged on 12/20/2004 01:46:00 AM

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suddenly felt so blessed to have my friends remembering my birthday.. hehe.. i think its enough.... I must be contented already coz its impossible for me to ask for more. Thot that I wld just spend the day over quietly... ended up getting treats from my friends and colleagues.. and most importantly the one i like... *blush* so happy hehe... well, today is the actual day for my birthday, y i sound as if my birthday lasted for a few days lol.... thank you friends.. for the treats and presents, really really appreciated it alotz. =)

Really hope that it wld be a brand new year for me and my wish is to see everyone staying healthy and happy. Happy birthday to myself!! =D


fallen blogged on 12/19/2004 01:57:00 AM

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I am so angry man.... the letter sent by FF was kenna sabotage by some idiot guy... dun know who the hell is it.. the letter was torn opened.. lucky thing is nothing was lost... then why he/she so bo liao go and tear open??? This is not the first time man.. last time my malaysia friend sent me a keychain in the envelop was kenna torn opened also.. then the keychain was gone... complained to the post office... they like treat it as nothing happened like tat.. wat the ..... fxxx..... feeling so insecure of the postmans nowadays.. haizz..... juz my luck...


fallen blogged on 12/18/2004 01:49:00 PM

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I like the weather now. Its a sunny afternoon and I am in the office. When the sun shines on the sg river, the water seems to give out little sparkles, like the sparkling stars in the sky, its beautiful. I enjoy standing by the window and look down at the river, watching the "sparkling stars", and it cheers me up everytime. I like to imagine myself sitting by the river with my gf together watching the "stars" and the boats passing by, that is the best thing that I could ever wish for. How I wish my dreams will come true. But it never will.


fallen blogged on 12/15/2004 03:29:00 PM

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I am not happy at all. I think I should resign to my fate. Pls dun scold me for being depressed again. I dun wish to be like tat. I just can't help it. I have been thinking wat is the meaning of life. I dun know.... maybe its not for me to know.


fallen blogged on 12/12/2004 01:41:00 AM

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By chance, watched a tv program on channel newsasia juz now.. its on a story abt a cobbler. This guy was at lost wat he shld do aft his ns, changed job here and there.... don't know wat he wants in life.. then one day, his mother told him something that changed his life. "Why not you go learn some skills from your father better than loafting ard at home?" He was touched by his mother's words. Therefore, he decided to help out at his father's stall, whom his father is a cobbler. At first, he felt quite distant from his father, and didn't really help much. Sometimes, he felt inferior too coz he thinks tat people will look down on him as a cobbler. Luckily, he have the support of his good friends and family. Gradually, he found wat he wanted in life, and took up the job of a cobbler. From then, he changed his perspective abt life.
I was touched by his story. As if seeing myself in him, but i am still at a lost, good for him that he has found wat he wanted in life. I am still struggling with wat i want.............


fallen blogged on 12/11/2004 02:30:00 PM

yeah... went out with my cg leader today... went to eat marche and shopped ard suntec city. The most unforgetable part was when she bought a cheeze cake for me to celebrate my birthday. wow.... i was so touched at tat moment, its the thot tat counts, althot is juz a small cheeze cake, as long as its from her, i m very happy already. Haha, she sang the birthday song to me, i nearly melted on the spot lol... chatted the whole night away... how i wish this night will never ends. Watever it is, i understand clearly tat she only treated me as her friend. I can only hide in 1 corner wishing her well. Hope she will be happy and her bf treats her well. Then i will be happy =)


fallen blogged on 12/11/2004 01:36:00 AM

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{Thursday, December 09, 2004 . }

erm... happy things... yest. lo.. wendy and peh celebrated birthday for me in advance =)
haha went for dinner treated by them, then play pool and have a drink. Was fun and enjoyable but somehow dun know why feel tat something's missing somewhere. Nvm.... was really thotful of them to celebrate for me. Thankiess =D
Looking forward to this fri, coz meeting my cg leader! haha, she msg me yest. aftnoon to meet her this fri =)) aiya.. actually nothing to be so excited abt.. she is att already.. haiz... I can only hide in a corner wishing her well..

suddenly got something to say to you. Carol, I know u r reading this. Just want to let you know that althot our fate has seems to end here, I do really cherish our "moments" together, and I really liked you before, wishfully on my part hope that we can be at least good friends. Too bad, looks like we are never meant to be together. We continued to lead our own lives no matter what has happened before. So, be happy, that's my wish for you. Always in my thots~


fallen blogged on 12/09/2004 01:38:00 AM

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{Sunday, December 05, 2004 . }

Got a shock when i saw my friend's dog! She took her dog for shaving and her dog look so bald now! omg.... guess he still couldn't get used to his new look.... seems very uneasy most of the time lol.. he is cute in his own ways hehe.. went to my friend's hse to study.. didn't notice the time was getting late.. so took a cab back home. On my way home, the road seems so quiet. As if the whole world left only me, myself and I on the road. How i wish the journey never ends.
I give up. I give up on the people. I don't wish to bother anymore. I don't wish to see, hear or know any of their business. Leave me alone.

There won't be any happy endings. This is not fairy tales.




fallen blogged on 12/05/2004 11:31:00 PM

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{Saturday, December 04, 2004 . }

A lot of things to say. But don't know who can I talk to and how to say it out.

Are You being fair to me? Is it that I can't fall in love? Why are You loving everyone except me? I don't believe in You anymore.

I want to change. Its no BIG deal, I can live on without u.

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like my only friend
Is the city I live in
The city of angel
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

It's hard to believe that there's nobody out there
It's hard to believe that I'm all alone
At least I have her love
The city she loves me
Lonely as I am
Together we cry

I don't ever wanna feel
Like I did that day
Take me to the place I love
Take me all the way

Under the bridge downtown
Is where I drew some blood
Under the bridge downtown
I could not get enough
Under the brigde downtown
Forgot about my love
Under the bridge downtown
I gave my life away


fallen blogged on 12/04/2004 01:38:00 AM

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{Wednesday, December 01, 2004 . }

On my way to work, saw a doggie.. barking at a cat. The cat was so coooool... dun even give a damn with it, the doggie was so bo liao... kept on barking at the cat when its owner kept pulling it away.. it still struggled to move. The owner really got to PULL it away LOL. Whereas the cat juz relaxed and lie there enjoying its sun-tanning. The cat muz be thinking tat the dog is crazy -.-"" *meow* My colleague likes to tease at me saying tat i like to look at the cats, dogs, birds very much. Yes la.... I like animals wat... but not every1 of them. How i wish i can keep pets at home... hehe... but my mum says that if i really keep a pet.. she will pity the pet... bcos i will surely torture it... wat the.................... =[


fallen blogged on 12/01/2004 10:13:00 AM

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