another rainy and stormy day........ haiz... wanted to go out but scared become drenched chicken again. Got umbrella no use one when the rain is too big. Might as well stayed at home ba. Wow.. spent my two weekends at home this week. =[ wat happen to me man... dun feel like going to work tmr as well..


fallen blogged on 10/31/2004 11:00:00 PM

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Can't believe it. Only eaten less than half bowl of rice for dinner juz nw. No appetite. =( I don't know why.

I am not lonely, missing you is.


fallen blogged on 10/30/2004 09:53:00 PM

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Who can fill this emptiness of mine?
Who is willing to walk with me side by side regardless of rain or shine?
Who can make me smile when i'm tired?
Who can hold my hands no matter what happens?
Who will cry with me when i cry?
Who is willing to accompany me when i am sick?
Who will enjoy strolling with me by the seaside?
Who will be able to understand my thoughts?
Who will be interested in whatever I do?
Who can give me encouragement to carry on?
Who....................................

In search of you.


fallen blogged on 10/28/2004 11:15:00 PM

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*sneeze sneeze* =cough cough= arrrggghhhhhh ............. in the office struggling now.... feel like going home later... x_x no mood to work also... help help.. ='(


fallen blogged on 10/26/2004 10:16:00 AM

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*Dying* really couldn't make it to work today.. like a walking zombie the whole day.. =(
And my mind was being occupied the whole day.
I was wondering am i really gonna remain like this for the rest of my life?? F*** the damn destiny of mine.
I think when one's sick, the mind can really hu si luan xiang. Like now, i also dun know wat am i blogging now.. drowsy aft eaten medicine. Sleeping time for me! zzzzZZZZ


fallen blogged on 10/25/2004 10:31:00 PM

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*sneeze sneeze* ....................... arrggghhh..... caught a cold today, got drenched by the heavy rain yest. *sob sob* abit feverish .... hope i can make it to work tmr man.... zzzzZZZZZ


fallen blogged on 10/24/2004 10:43:00 PM

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I'm not myself today. My heart is at MS. Thot of going at 1st, but got so easy one meh? The more u wan to see that person, the more u won't get to see. The person u don't wish to see most will always appear in front of you. And things will always happen in an unexpected way that u have never thot of. Therefore, I don't wish to purposely go and find her. Let fate decide. If we were meant to meet, i guess no matter where i am, i will get to see her. But then, Fate this thing, is always not on my side. ...................................................................


fallen blogged on 10/23/2004 02:36:00 PM

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Its already thurs. A week has juz flew by.. having heart cramps today.. feeling terrible.. boarded the idiot bus with the idiot bus driver who kept on jerking the bus which makes me even wans to vomit. Finally got some sleep when the bus went on highway... haiz.....

I'm not sure is it her? I purposely stand beside her waiting for traffic light. When the green man on, I walked past her. I pretend don't know her. She shld have noticed me as we took the same bus. The feeling is gone. I m hating her~~ I don't wan to know or hear or see anything about her. I can pretend I never known her before. GEt out of my life.

Home sux. [Under mental torture] Haha [cold laughz]
Somebody once said that "Our destiny is in our own hands." I don't agree to that. Many times many things are out of our control. Its not what we want it to be, it will be. [another cold laughz]


fallen blogged on 10/21/2004 11:02:00 PM

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Daydream Daydream Daydream Daydreamt the whole day.
Can't believe that this kind of thing could happen in real life.. and on me.


fallen blogged on 10/17/2004 11:08:00 PM

suddenly feel like MIA-ing dun accept calls dun see anyone juz hide myself somewhere in this world. Went to walk ard and take pics.. not bad feeling.. i think i prefer this way.. too tired to bother abt how ppl feel and everything.

Regretted!!! Regretted going to MS yesterday..dun ask me why.. juz very regretted! I would have been alright if i never went.. =(


fallen blogged on 10/17/2004 03:56:00 PM

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{Wednesday, October 13, 2004 . }

All my efforts have gone down the drain... no matter how hard i try... its useless. I am beginning to accept the cruel reality. All the dudes out there! I have had enough of you! I shall not bother anymore.

Is it wrong to care for someone?
I think it is.
One cannot be too soft-hearted or
too caring or
having too high expectations.
No matter how hard you try,
You might not get anything in the end.
Trust me.


fallen blogged on 10/13/2004 10:08:00 PM

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{Sunday, October 10, 2004 . }

Had Yoshinoya for dinner... yum yum delicious.... bought the combo meals.. they having promotions now....ate till so full.... *burp* excuse me hehe... went to my friend's hse to see her doggy!! Very fast man... her doggy was only so small when i went to buy with her tat time.. now has grown up... the dog's breed is schnauzer.. when he was a puppy.. so cute! Now has grown up to be .... erm... handsome? LOL He seems to recognise me.... haha... first step into my friend's hse.. he came jumping up on me LOLX kind of too friendly tho.... -___-" if not my friend say he will bark at her other friends de.. he seems to be well behaved in front of me hehe..


fallen blogged on 10/10/2004 11:47:00 PM

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{Saturday, October 09, 2004 . }

blood boiling now! Met a BITCH today.... ok i admit it was my fault to have accidentally stepped on her foot. THEN? she dun have to say it out so loud ba until the whole bus people can hear... "WAH! YOU STEPPED INTO MY FOOT AH!" F.U ah! As if i nothing better to do to go and step on her foot la.. when she yelled, the whole bus was like looking towards my direction... shit... i quickly said sorry a few times... seems like she was not happy with my sorry... NVM.... hack care i quickly alighted the bus.. damn it.. i dun wan to take tat no. anymore in case get to see tat bitch again.. i think the whole bus recognise me already la.. wah liaw.. arrggghh....... wat a day.....


fallen blogged on 10/09/2004 11:24:00 PM

Exam is finally over!!!!! hahaha.... never thot that this exam could cause me so much stresssss.... haiz... who ask me dun revise regularly... last min then gan cheong... LOL.....
Wed paper sux! sianz.... dun know can make it anot... haiz... but yest's paper was good! at least easier than wed de la... =P

Aft exam, went to meet my friends hahaha!! To celebrate exam over of cos.. went to a pub to drink.. i prefer quiet pubs as in not those playing loud music (clubbing) kind... there got people singing some songs.. then we juz sat there and drink and listen and play cards =] very cosy kind of feeling.. anyway got drunk yest. nite.. hahaha.... think i msg rubbish to my friends =*P luckily got my friend drove me home hehe... first thing tat i reached home lie flat on the bed u_u zzzZZZZ in the end awaken at 4am this morning =S then cannot get to slp liao.. head very painful .... arrgghhh...... dun like the hangover feeling...

Anyway suddenly abit lost... exam over liao.. no need to go school anymore.. dun know wat to do aft work.. everyday work home home work again i guess. =


fallen blogged on 10/09/2004 09:39:00 AM

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{Tuesday, October 05, 2004 . }

erm... i bullied a pigeon today hahahaha..... i was on my way back from lunch today... then one pigeon blocked my way... i thot she will like walk to the other direction or smething... as i came closer and closer to her... guess wat she did?? as she saw me coming... she walked backwards instead... like kenna scared by me... hahaha... as i approached closer even more.. she finally knew wat to do.. change direction! LOL

hey! I am missing you... yes YOU! The one carrying BAMBOOS and with 2 cats at home .. stop looking ard... its you!!! wat happen to you?? Y didn't u reply my msg-es? Tag / msg/ email / ask the pigeon to deliver the msg to me if you see this ok? I got so much things to tell u... pls reply me! Miss ya alotz =(


fallen blogged on 10/05/2004 01:11:00 AM

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{Sunday, October 03, 2004 . }

study study study........ argghhhh...... no mood to study despite exam is juz this coming wed =(
can't seem to get a single word into my brain... hohoho


fallen blogged on 10/03/2004 05:30:00 PM

My dear throw trumpet yesterday.. haha... i'm refering to my mp3 player. She's my companion and best friend at all times k... whenever i'm down... i will listen to my songs.. and she will comfort me.. i will talk to "her" also.. she won't refuse to listen to me. so she's better than any human beings on earth. am i right? Anyway, my "dear" got some problem yest.... make me so sad... thot tat i'm gonna lose her... therfore today went to creative care centre and got her treated. haha... the staff transferred sun yan zi's songs to my player! wahahaa.. tat's my fav singer man...
Then took a bus to clementi and enjoyed my sun yan zi songs on the bus...i enjoyed this journey most.. cos not much ppl on the bus.. and i enjoyed watching the sceneries.
Changed a bus to go school. Planned to study for exams in the lib... in the end haiz... not enough time didn't study much... coz meeting my friend for korean class.
Met her for dinner 1st.. then went with another 2 more friends. The class was not bad.. interesting.. and difficult =

fallen blogged on 10/03/2004 01:26:00 AM

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{Friday, October 01, 2004 . }

I finally know
I finally understand
I finally seen how ugly this world is
And how "true" people are around me
I kept telling myself nevermind
Let them be
Because I am not important at all
I am just a stranger living in this world without destinations

Nobody will understand how I really feel right now
Nobody is really true to me
I have losthope
I have given up
And I am hurt
I am tired
I am living in memories
Who will come and save me?


fallen blogged on 10/01/2004 01:35:00 PM

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