finally got the digital cam i have been dreaming of today!! haha.. not of any particular brand as long as its a digital cam can already.. and most importantly muz be CHEAP! Bought this one at the creative warehse sale.. less than $200 is it considered cheap? I dun really know but so far as i have seen outside mostly are over $200+++.. mine can be digital cam, video recorder as well as webcam. I am very happy with so many functions already keke..

fallen blogged on 5/29/2004 11:15:00 PM

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I dun know shld i laugh or shld i cry now.. very sianz(x infinity) of her action already.. is this the way to settle things? How old is she already... y is she still so childish.. somemore as a buddhist.. haha.. was surprised of myself the way i acted so calm juz now.. I was not at all afraid when she took out the knife.. getting numb i guess.. my EQ muz be damn high at tat moment.. i was not in a good state anyway.. so its a miracle tat i can be so calm at tat moment..

Taking out knifes juz as when she likes.. in front of "guan yin" somemore. wah liaw.. i wonder why she goes to temple anyway.. and her scolding was... terrible.. she really needs counselling.. I dun know how long can i hold on.. till the day i totally give up. Tats the end of me.

I think i dun know her anymore.. she seems like a stranger to me.. this makes me more wanting to go tw.. really yearn to leave this f*** place. Guess its a blessing tat i dun have a gf.. she wld be scared to death if she knows my family background to be like tat. I guess i cant fall in love with anyone at all..

Missed those days alot.. when we were still in old hse.. where she used to bring me to see movies when i was young.. we were happy back then..

Mummy i really do love you.. i really dun mean to hurt you or made u angry.. i really dun understand why have we become like this.. if i have a choice, i choose not to grow up.. so tat i can stay by ur side. Heard from somewhere tat "the person we care most is the person we hurt most.."

fallen blogged on 5/28/2004 12:00:00 AM

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went to school to pay sch fees today as well as met up with my friend. See her like kind of stress over her examz.. haiz can't of any help but to give her my moral support. Really enjoyed talking to her everytime.. never fails to light up my day. =]

Aft tat, went to meet my cgl and her cg members for movie. Her bf was there also loh.. actually regretted aft confirming with her.. last min thot of her bf might be present too.. damn true enough.. win liao lo.. damn embrassing for me.. quite dislike her bf find him abit strange. well, as long as she is "xing fu" then i shld be happy for her right... guess i shall be out of the picture real soon and back to square one again. I don't belong there in the 1st place..

Btw the movie we watched was shrek 2.. althot i didn't watch shrek 1 but find it damn funny... very nice MUZ WATCH! didn't expect it to be like tat... so overall not bad lah.. at least i enjoyed the movie..


fallen blogged on 5/27/2004 12:59:00 AM

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Its a miracle!! Haha i actually helped my mum in preparing dinner today.. well made her rather upset the last few days.. so got to do something to please her.. =P

Doesn't seem as easy as i thot.. the road to pursue my dreams. Correct loh, if dreams are so easy to realise then its not called dreams anymore. All i can see in front of me now are obstacles and obstacles, problems and problems.. kenna lecture by my close friend bcos of this matter.. is it wrong to pursue my goals? I know she means well for me, but did she consider my feelings? She only expected me to do wat she thinks is right, have she ever thot of is tat wat i really wanted. I dun know wat shld i do now tat is right

fallen blogged on 5/25/2004 10:35:00 PM

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Today is the last episode of "Sonic Youth", was greatly inspired by this drama. Its not only about those idol shows showing the idols in r/s or bo liao story lines. In the end, the whole drama is focusing only on idols. "Sonic Youth" is more on showing youngsters finding goals in their life and gradually becoming more mature, a profound and meaningful drama.

Of cos, had the same feeling as the characters as i watched the show. Yearning to find own goals in life and hope to achieve smething. Lan lan said something in the show that leaves a deep impact in my mind. She said she is like a silkworm baby all this while, keeps on eating leaves. But there is a clock reminding her that she muz leave the cocoon when the time is up. Now is the time for her to leave her cocoon. I have the same sentiments as her too. I muz get out of my cocoon! I can't stay in my cocoon forever. I m so left behind, I have to catch up with my friends.

I have decided to apply for the TW scholarship. I can't afford to waste anymore time. My greatest weakness is not being Focused + Determined enough hopefully I can overcome tat.

fallen blogged on 5/22/2004 08:22:00 PM

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Yes. I have got back my freedom. So?? Then?? Other than freedom, i also got emptiness in return. The problem is still there, i still have to face it no matter wat. Find myself totally SUX in every aspects of life.

Fall in love with David Tao's Angel.. almost listening to it every nite. Where is my angel?? =(
Yue liang dai biao shui de xin also not bad.. basically i like david tao's every song hahaha
[Angel Angel 请你留在我的身边
Angel Angel 请你不要放开我的手]

fallen blogged on 5/21/2004 10:08:00 PM

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went out on my own today.. see couples almost everywhere... no BIG deal man... i m fine on my own =| still trying to figure out wat shld i do with my life man =(

fallen blogged on 5/16/2004 10:32:00 PM

Attended her church service today.. quite ok... but me not ok.. i realised tat i can't keep on relying on others.. i need to know wat i really wanted for the future.. i dun wan to wait till when i'm 30 yrs old then regret tat i didn't do anything when i was younger.. how? i dun know.... i have wasted 3 yrs, how many more 3 yrs to waste?

fallen blogged on 5/16/2004 01:27:00 AM

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{Wednesday, May 12, 2004 . }

been thinking alot... dun really have an exact soln yet.. haizz.. can she stop being so nice to me? So afraid that i will fall in love with her once again.. she is the one that knows me best and will always concern for me =..( and me.. always having problems... i know she only treats me as her cg member althot i'm not already.. and she will always be my cgl in my heart.. nobody can replace her ok?? She is too good... too good for me...

fallen blogged on 5/12/2004 10:56:00 PM

Wat's wrong with me man... escaping from reality... didn't go W again today.. really regretted to accept it..arrgghhh..... SUX....

fallen blogged on 5/12/2004 12:48:00 AM

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{Saturday, May 08, 2004 . }

Feeling myself very unwanted... i m getting out of breath living in this city... so helpless until i dun know wat to do with myself... next life i dun wan to be a human anymore.. its too tiring.. i wan to be a sparrow.. can fly about freely in the sky and go anywhere i wan to.. =)

fallen blogged on 5/08/2004 05:33:00 PM

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{Thursday, May 06, 2004 . }

alright man... tmr is fri =] finally a week has passed again.. sux man.. quarrelled with my mum juz now... i was already not in a good mood bcos of some personal stuff.. she likes to purposely come and disturb me can't she juz leave me alone?? AAARRRGHGGHHH my head not blocked.. its gonna EXPLODE!!! I juz dun understand y i can't live the life i wan it to be .. =(

fallen blogged on 5/06/2004 09:30:00 PM

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{Tuesday, May 04, 2004 . }

He is at it again.... turning a deaf ear to watever he says... hahhaa i pissed him off juz now.. his face became so black.. =x gonna quit on my own.. fried him cuttlefish hehehe

fallen blogged on 5/04/2004 12:03:00 AM

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{Saturday, May 01, 2004 . }

bored bored bored bored bored arrgghhhhh stay at home the whole day.. wanted to go out walk walk but nowhere to go.. noone to go with also... =(
boring weekend....x|

fallen blogged on 5/01/2004 10:12:00 PM

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