Starting work tmr... =\ am i feeling nervous? excited? happy? scared? eh..... none of them... dun know how to react at the moment... =| all i hope for now is everyday work, home, sleep, work, home, sleep......... dun wan to think so much... gonna make myself very tired so that i won't have the time to think of her.. Juz can't help but kept on reminded of her birthday which is in may... ya.. its juz ard the corner.. well... y shld i bother abt it man.. will have alot of friends celebrating for her one lah.. it doesn't really make a difference to her whether i'm ard anot.. all i got this while is cruelty from her.. she is really cruel and heartless.. this world is so big .. of all people y muz i fall in love with her?? WHY??? I dun understand and i dun wan to understand! How i wish i never get to know her at all.

fallen blogged on 4/28/2004 10:27:00 PM

Received FF's call juz now.. she's coming back this june for holiday yeah~~~ miss her alotzz... =]

fallen blogged on 4/28/2004 12:34:00 AM

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{Friday, April 23, 2004 . }

finally watched "turn left turn right" today at my friend's hse.. surprisely dun feel anything for the movie.. have i totally become numbed? "They're both convinced that a sudden passion joined them. Such certainty is beautiful, but uncertainty is more beautiful." (used in the movie lines)
Was in a daze thruout the whole journey back home.. turning into a feelingless creature which i think shld be better for me.. at least i won't feel anymore pain or disappointments =]

fallen blogged on 4/23/2004 11:37:00 PM

let everything go in peace......

fallen blogged on 4/23/2004 12:05:00 AM

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{Thursday, April 22, 2004 . }

I have decided to face the reality.. i m fated to be alone.. its going to be only me, myself and i walking on this path called "life"..

fallen blogged on 4/22/2004 12:34:00 AM

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{Wednesday, April 21, 2004 . }

Am i crying? oh i m crying.. nothing goes right for me... i have no strength to go on anymore.. its ENOUGH.. i tell myself its ENOUGH.. i have had ENOUGH of it.. i simply can't understand y muz it be ME? no i dun think so.... everything sux everybody sux the world sux TAKE go ahead and take my life away dun be such a turtle hiding there doing all these things to me will ya?

fallen blogged on 4/21/2004 12:41:00 AM

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{Tuesday, April 20, 2004 . }

ANGRY + ANNOYED + FRUSTRATING
ARRGGGHHHHHHHHH stupid boss idiot boss.. taking me for granted like that.. he think his allowance is ALOOOOOOOOOT. As if i am doing voluntary work for him like that.. siao. If got to wait for him to survive.. I would be dead long ago liao.. i am doing the work out of kindness ok... and also give my friend face.. seems as if i am obligated to do it like that wah lau =S I can dun do one u know.. i m not his staff actually.. no salary no benefits only tat miserable allowance given every month.. sianzz... only know how to use mouth to talk.. then ask me go think of solutions wah kao~ i was thinking to myself.. y shld i? Its not worth my effort at all .. in the end all the benefits goes to him.. if got a perm job liao.. i wan to kick him off.. go do yourself lah if so stingy dun bear to pay salary.. IDIOT PIGGGGGGG!!

fallen blogged on 4/20/2004 12:32:00 AM

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{Monday, April 19, 2004 . }

*Yawn* tired tired still got to rush the AC assignment by tmr.. hahaha anyway met up with that cute gal in library today.. dun know why juz enjoyed talking to her.. maybe bcos she's aquarius.. my best friend is aquarius too.. therefore we can click. =)

fallen blogged on 4/19/2004 12:24:00 AM

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{Friday, April 16, 2004 . }

Last paper~~~!!! Hahaha.... end of one problem another coming up.. WORK!!! arrggghhhhh...... taking ages and ages to find this stupig WORK. HOW LEH HOW LEH no work no $$.. i dun have a single idea at all my head is still blocked*

Anyway met up with that cute gal again in school aft my exam haha.. hope can get to know her better.. as a FRIEND ok.. dun think otherwise hahhaha

fallen blogged on 4/16/2004 11:54:00 PM

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{Wednesday, April 14, 2004 . }

Love is a Dream
Dreams are Impossible
Hands are Empty
Focus is Blur
Journey is Long
Life is a Pain

fallen blogged on 4/14/2004 06:07:00 PM

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{Tuesday, April 13, 2004 . }

Done with the 1st paper today arrrggghhhh dun know wat am i writing juz now.. juz wanted to get over it fast.. left with fri's paper.. which is my dooom day hahaha... can't seem to get a word stuck into my brain.. head so blocked..

Aft paper, met a irc friend for dinner in sch. She's so cute! :P And most importantly we both like cats..... hahaha..... *yawn* feel like sleeping now... tomorrow then study (hopefully i will).


fallen blogged on 4/13/2004 10:30:00 PM

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{Saturday, April 03, 2004 . }

*TIRED*Woke up early in the morning today for the "sweep tomb" event. I was very unwilling to join in the event but attendance is compulsory wat can i say....? Not in very good terms with my father's side relatives.. but for the sake of praying to my grandpa.. we have to join them to sweep tomb. As usual, i played the role of extra actress in front of them, everybody treated me as invisible.. well have got used to it...

Finally the event is over...BUT not for the day yet.. there's still my mother's side relatives to entertain *faint* Have to go pray to my grandma and grandpa (mother) as well, then on the way together with my aunties, got to entertain them.. don't like to go out with my relatives.. they say want to go where.. we must go where..super tired~~~ as i m typing my blog now i was like half dreaming already zzzzZZZZ

Bo pian.. i'm the youngest and most useless person in the family.. I cannot have a say mah.. everyone treating me like shit.. as if i'm a pain in their neck.. why can't i juz disappear into the thin air????? Why muz i exist in the 1st place??? Its a damn great mistake tat he has made to let me come to this world....

fallen blogged on 4/03/2004 11:56:00 PM

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{Thursday, April 01, 2004 . }

Balloons are in the air.. with many colors..shapes and sizes.. one by one they are being burst out..... is life supposed to be like tat? I'm still thinking.........

fallen blogged on 4/01/2004 11:52:00 PM

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