*love sick* the person i wan to see never appears.. those that i dun wan to see keeps on appearing in front of me =\ was really hoping to see her again but fate dun come anymore.

Was stuck in the rain on my way home today, waiting for the rain to stop and daydreaming of her keke =P where is she now? wat could she be doing? Is she caught in the rain too? How i wish she is right beside me now.........................

fallen blogged on 3/28/2004 10:50:00 PM

Today was a tiring day.. met a (long time no c) poly frend for lunch. Looks like everyone is doing well except me. Then went hang ard with my buddy at bras basah.. well well.. these words are so true.. "u will know who your true friends are when crisis comes.." Got some financial problems recently, then this buddy of mine has been wanting to offer her help to me twice already *touched* althot not some BIG figures but its not small either.. and she's very willing to lend me the $$ regardless of how long i will take to pay back ='\ *very touched*
Some friends when u r in trouble, dun know siam(run) to where already.. of cos its the thot that counts, i'm not saying that if tat person cannot be help of u then he/she is not your true friend. It is whether you really have the heart to help or not, even moral supports are also counted.
I know tat she is not very rich herself, her attachment pay every month is like sux.. so really dun bear to take the $$ from her.. even if she offers to do so.. haiz will try to find a way out myself.

Went np in the evening to see a concert presented by np cultural activities and social service club. Overall, ok lah, so so loh. When the harmonica troupe performs, makes me think back of my days in sec school where i was also in harmonica troupe. Saw my teacher who leads harmonica in my sec sch, he aged so much.. haizz... oh man.. the troupe size is smaller than my sec sch's. Looks like very few people are interested in harmonica nowadays. As compared, the chinese orchestra was much larger.

I am thinking of her again =(

fallen blogged on 3/28/2004 01:44:00 AM

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{Wednesday, March 24, 2004 . }

I saw her again today, someone who seems to be capturing my heart. First time saw her was on a bus. I was juz sitting next to her. She is very scared of cold, same as me haha. She was feeling very uneasy cos the bus journey was long, the aircon got colder and colder. Feeling heart aches seeing her to be in "coldness", i wanted to take off my jacket immediately and cover her with warmness. Erm.. but.. I dun dare to do that lah. She might be treating me as a stranger, dun wan to scare her off. Finally, we alighted at GWC. Yes, WE. Damn idiot stupig me, i shld have followed her to find out where she is working. But i guess i let fate juz slipped away.

Never thot that i can get to see her again. We boarded the same bus at yishun interchange, but i didn't get to sit with her lah. Anyway, we alighted at the same bus stop. Yes, WE again. I could have followed her this time to find out where she lives. But, i was with my mum lah. So coincident, everytime wait for the feeder bus it take years to come. But today it came immediately aft i alighted at the bus stop, and of cos, my mum wanted to board it lah. Therefore, i boarded the bus reluctantly bcos she was still standing at the bus stop. Aft i got on the bus, i noticed her looking at me from the bus stop, exactly the same expression she looked at me the first time on the bus.
Watever it is, i let fate to be slipped away once again. T_T

But even if i get to see her for the 3rd time, i also dun know how to approach her. My mind gets blocked when the situation comes. =[

fallen blogged on 3/24/2004 03:03:00 AM

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{Sunday, March 21, 2004 . }

Today is the last lesson of this sem.. left less than 1 month to prepare for examz haha stress.. well.. still bumming ard as usual and distributing "flyers".. but not so active anymore.. being very passive.. lacking of brain ink haha.. alright i'm muttering nonsense here =P

fallen blogged on 3/21/2004 12:43:00 AM

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{Thursday, March 18, 2004 . }

Feel myself to be a pile of shit.. i got no future..no hope..no directions.. everyday living aimlessly in this world.. can someone teach me wat to do PLS

fallen blogged on 3/18/2004 11:27:00 PM

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{Wednesday, March 17, 2004 . }

Dreams are like balloons; Reality is like needles. Balloons are burst by needles easily; The bigger your balloon is, when it is burst up, u will get hurt more easily. So stop playing with balloons! hahaha

fallen blogged on 3/17/2004 01:01:00 AM

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{Sunday, March 14, 2004 . }

Having toothache lah *pain* haiz exam is coming but i'm still slacking hahaha...
seems to be raining everyday hmm.....

fallen blogged on 3/14/2004 05:54:00 PM

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{Saturday, March 13, 2004 . }

*damn confused* Is there anyone out there who can help me? =S

fallen blogged on 3/13/2004 01:51:00 AM

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{Saturday, March 06, 2004 . }

Aft a half day work, thot could meet up with some friends to de-stress since its weekend. Nobody was available to entertain me :( Went walk walk alone in central area.. seeing couples..friends hanging out together how i envy them :|
life is full of shit..

fallen blogged on 3/06/2004 11:26:00 PM

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{Thursday, March 04, 2004 . }

Bought a book yesterday.. its the chinese movie shown not long ago "Turn left Turn right" in the form of cartoon comics, by taiwan famous author Jimmy. Missed the movie..never get to catch it with her.. so happy tat i managed to buy the book.. it was worth reading bcos the storyline in the book seems to be describing my life. There's one line in the book tat says some people in this city might not get to know each other for the rest of their lifes but always living together in the city..
Roughly, this story is abt a man and a woman living in this lonely city.. or shld say they r juz neighbours living next to each other! but bcos the girl always like to walk left side and the guy always like to walk right side so they never get to meet each other. Finally, fate brings them together in a fountain. They spent the day happily together but a heavy rain separates them again. In a rush, they only managed to leave their contact no. But the paper was wet from the rain, they can't read each other's handwriting at all. ANd they dun even know they r juz living next to each other! Therefore they lost contact. They never get to meet again when they r actually so near to each other. Bcos of their habit of walking different directions, they missed their fate.
Sometimes fate is so near yet so far, that special person might be juz beside u and u dun even know it. The day when u get to meet the person will be when your path crosses each other. When will my path cross into hers?

fallen blogged on 3/04/2004 09:27:00 PM

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