Went jogging today.. aft tat went shopping by myself.. find tat i addchilli enjoyed been alone.. maybe am getting used to it le ba.. ~wo xiang wo ke yi xi guan yi ge ren sheng huo.. wo xiang wo ke yi jia zhuang bu ceng ai guo~..

fallen blogged on 2/29/2004 11:17:00 PM

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its a rotting day for me... erm.... wonder where have all my friends gone to? Most of them bz with dating sianzz ok lah i have no date lah cannot meh... ='( wonder how long do i have to carry on my life like that.. aaarrrggghhhhhhhhh hahahahhaaha

fallen blogged on 2/28/2004 11:41:00 PM

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Restlesssssss very restlesssssss no mood to do anything.. didn't even bother to buy newspapers and look at the jobs.... feeling very disappointed in everything. My drinking addict seems to be coming back again.. will tend to turn to drinking whenever i'm beyond sad. Meaning i'm not sad anymore, i'm getting depressed and breakdown very soon. Maybe my life is meant to be like tat.... i'm not supposed to have any happiness... ..... Suddenly have the urge of drinking now... hoping to get myself drunk yeah~~~

fallen blogged on 2/25/2004 01:04:00 AM

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She's attached.. shld i feel happy for her or sad for myself..? When she was sad and down, I gently knocked on her heart's door, she didn't open the door for me, i walked away disappointedly. Over a period of time, another person came into her life and knocked on her heart's door too, this time she opened the door for her and she managed to go in easily. Her heart dun belong to me, I can't go in no matter how hard i try.

All the people i really loved, end up attached with someone else. What have i done to deserve this? Maybe its true, i'm a loner aft all.. loner won't have a relationship, im fated to be alone.

My friend commented tat my blog kind of depressing.. yes it is bcos i m. I can't pretend tat i'm happy alright? Yes i may put up a front in front of my friends, but then i dun see the need to do it here since its my blog. This is the only place where i can show my true self and my emotions.

LOve does not exist in reality, only in my dreams....

fallen blogged on 2/24/2004 12:55:00 AM

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*Sick* My nose wants to run away from me hahaha ... bought this REMEMBER album today.. the songs are niceeeee..... finally found the song tat i have been looking for "every time u go away" hehe.. *sneeze sneeze* ='( i think died died got to go c doc liao haizzz....
Addchilli went to bed juz now... but then some pictures came into my mind therefore i'm here sitting in front of my laptop typing again haha.. mum came in a while ago and nagged at me :P dun care
Lying on my bed juz now i think of FF again... wondering how is she now in sydney.. really missing her badly =( These words are so true to me now...
"u will only know how to cherish the things when they are gone.. " when a person/thing is by your side.. u don't realise their importance..once they are gone.. u will only end up regretting for not cherishing them. We have known each other for 10 years since sec 1.. all those memories suddenly will pop out from nowhere.. making me sad... the happy times seems to go so fast.. how i miss my sec sch days ..... and FF. She likes to take photos.. everytime when i m taking photo i will think of her... think of the days we used to go to places and take photos together.. now i can only do it alone..
Since that day i see her off at airport, i knew my life will be affected somehow or the other.. y can't time stop at the sec sch days.. where we were still naive and innocent.. only knows abt study and play..
To FF: I really miss u alot.. miss the days we went out together.. really hope to see u again.. take care of urself over there '-'

fallen blogged on 2/20/2004 12:37:00 AM

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arrrggghhh... got a sore throat lah ='(
today's lesson was like zzzzzzZZZZ somemore my pretty classmate didn't come for lesson even more ZZZZZZZZZ in class hahhaha.. well it's quite late guess i shld really go zzzzzZZZZZ liao u.u

fallen blogged on 2/19/2004 01:59:00 AM

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*Head blocked* Slept the whole day at home lol

fallen blogged on 2/17/2004 11:44:00 PM

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Seems like God is taking away everything from me.. or shld say He is not going to give me.. today my friend asked me why i left the church.. haha i dun know how to ans her man... i dun wish to bad mouth Him.. but times and times again He is making me feeling so helpless and disappointed.. "God loves you".. i have heard this dozen and thousands of times.. hahahaaha God loves everyone in the world except me alright? Who can i trust and confide to... who can understand how i feel inside.. noone.. absolutely noone at all..
Let me rot and decomposed and eventually vanish from this world this wld be GOOD

fallen blogged on 2/16/2004 11:09:00 PM

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Met up with my friend to discuss the assignments.. wah lau.. the stupig LRT make me waited for 10mins... everytime like tat 1 dun see any progress in them.. haizz... i was late of cos.. .... tmr got interview again.. seems like my job is to be interviewed or find interviews? lol... Eh.. addchilli juz created this blog thingy kind of new to it.. anyway.. find it real cool.. i like this template very much hehe :P

fallen blogged on 2/15/2004 11:24:00 PM

Happy Lonely V.day to me! Spent the day at home rushing my assignments sianzz... next week got to submit liao!! hahhaaha c how i die man... guess got to continue it tmr..... *yawnz* zzzzzZZZZZZZ

fallen blogged on 2/15/2004 01:04:00 AM

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